Hushed Willows maybe it's time, maybe today

Her entire world suddenly becomes Silas. However long Lily stands there, Qilaq does not even notice, and she buries herself as much as she can into her mate’s chest. Soft whines and yips still fight out of her throat and she worries this isn’t real, that he is going to disappear despite the warmth coming from him. He’s thinner and tired but Qilaq can’t see that.
 
“I’m s-s-so sorry,” she cries, over and over. She does not hear the words he gives her, does not register them, for how could this be his fault?
 
Her rump hits the ground as she leans into him, struggling to keep quiet. She wants to tell him everything and nothing all at once and her words disappear entirely. “I-I-I didn’t mean—” she starts and closes her eyes, taking a long breath to steady herself but doesn’t have the means to continue.