Pouring her feeling to him was no easy task for the generally secretive female. Besides Kaname she really confided in anyone especially is she though of them as a potential threat. Not that Kaname wasn't a threat, if he took his eyes of her hips he would make a formidable competitor.
But that was not the matter in hand right now.
Out of all the wolves of the Spine, Mordecai was the one that kept her on edge. He was an aged man filled with patience (not with her though) that had already proven to have the qualifications to be an Apha.
While she would've not expected him to recieve the proposition with a smile on his face and a congratulating pat in the back she did not think that he would attempt to shoot down the idea so quickly. He was smart enough to know that that how the course of life went, and that more importantly said method was what made packs stronger.
Why was he trying to defy nature?
The yearling stood still as he gave his response, suddenly turning to attack the legitimacy of her devotion by saying her compromise was no greater than any ohter. A muffled growl of protest tried to break past her gritted teeth as she narrowed her pale eyes at the man, an outraged expression spreading through her features. "I devoted my entire existense to the well-being of this pack." she began, " I never ran; not when we were at war with the Isle, when we faced the treason of our own or even when Jinx died. " she barked, all air of superiority that once resided in her chest fading momentarily to let him see she meant every word.
"I didn't run then and I won't run now, Mordecai" she added in an urgent voice. He could hate her all he wanted, her goal was never to play miss popularity -- she could live knowing he hated her guts but she couldn't live with him thinking she was incapable of change. She had already morphed from a competitive subordinate to a queen and back again.
She was childish and rash but she was no fool.
Cara followed the rules of nature, where the fittest survived above all.
It was an eat or get eaten world and she was a hungry creature that would fight until her last breath to get what she wanted.
And if in order to get it she had to step down and prove her ability to adapt, then so be it.
