Despite the fact he was not being hostile and that she was not doing anything that would deserve some sort of punishment, she found it impossible to contain her body from shaking involuntarily at his sight. Being an abandoned piece of trash again had stripped her off her confidence. In her mind, the reason she was seemingly always thrown aside was not because the others were lousy at keeping the relationship going but because she was a lousy friend/daughter to have all by herself.
She felt she was the defective pieze of the puzzle they had to dispose of, not the other way around. She had been blinded to the option that maybe it she was not the only one that was broken and damaged. Though she suspected (and oh how right she was) that out of the two of them, she had recieved the hardest blows, she still thought Blue Willow had been in the least moved by her departure..
Even if she had not taken the bother to even miss or think of her once, Amelie still hoped to have forged some kind of impact into her heart.
"Yes. No." she blurted, feeling the little hairs on the nape of her neck stand on end. She thought it was a strange question for someone that had just lost everything, but still managed to answer -- or at least try to. She was still oblivious to the fact no one but Blue knew about her plans to leave, she had wrongly assumed she had had the delicacy to speak about it and not just shove it in the back of her mind like trash.
"I just don't know where to go" she breathed painfully, while casting her eyes to the ground. She had not planned what she would do next, but with Winter starting she knew she didn't have much time to think.
Maybe leaving had all been a mistake.
Or maybe loving Blue Willow like a mother had been what had condemmed her.
