fade?
And thus, Cara was caught right in between in the middle of a web she had woven herself, tangled in thoughts and 'what ifs' that wrapped around her neck like a noose. Being an individual that was forced into growing up far too quickly, Cara had adopted the philosophy to never regret and never forget.
As a young teen, after her father fell blind and began to be consumed by his old age, Cara was forced to switch from the role of child to guardian. Unlike her sisters, she took it upon her own hands to accompany her father until his last moments, never faltering at his side.
The time she spent grounded to the same place instead of leaving to start her own life was never one she would recover, but it was also not one she wished back.
Every miserable second she spent tending him and enduring her sisters' abuse was a second she kept firmly in her heart and mind.
Never would that be forgotten.
And as a newly appointed Alpha, in the midst of the grief, she would never regret having fought the ursurper. Even if a chunk of her dignity as well as a few scars had been lost and earned respectively, if given the chance she would do it all over again. Every lunge, every bite and every battle cry would be mirrored into the present if it was required.
Never would that loss be regreted.
So what was it about the conversation that a feeling of anguish cimbing up her esophagus like bile?
With a heavy sense of uncertainty stirring in her stomach like food in a cauldron, the Queen was suddenly left speechless. She felt the soft touch of the male but did nothing to awknowlegde it. Instead with her lips still pursed thoughtfully and a blank expression plastered across her face she pulled pulled her head away from the comfort she had found in Sitri's pillow-like frame.
"Goodnight SItri, it's cold." she managed to muster before stepping ungracefully back into the shadows of her home.
Maybe she did not regret her decision, but there was something she could not forget.
An anonymous white silhouette that still lingered in her most precious memories.