Under the light of a 1000 colors

Even though leaving the pack behind had crossed Osprey's mind and now that the trouble was even bigger than before, it seemed like a very tempting idea. Dante was right about one thing - running away would not solve her problems. Severing ties with the people that had grown close to her didn't seem either fair or right. She thought about Blue willow and, how sad she would be. Being the selfless person she was, she would probably keep her feelings to herself, she would let her go, even if it would make her unhappy. A newly found friend and kindred spirit Mordecai - she enjoyed his presence a great deal and it would be a loss indeed. There were kids that she wanted to see growing up. And there was this truth that she would have nowhere to go and would most likely perish out there.

Then there was Dante - always so proper - would he miss her too? Even after this? And the plateau itself, she had learned to love it and accept it as her home. It would be hard to leave it behind. The question of whether to go or not to was so easy, yet there was so much to lose, if she decided to leave and so little to gain. Osprey did not want to start her life anew. Once had been plenty enough for her to do it again. Therefore, when the leader caught up with her and spoke, she stopped to regard him with a weary gaze and said: "You think that it is easy? Keeping up the cheerful and careless appearance? Being tough and not complain, even when you want to scream, how very lonely you really are at the end of every single day? There is no excuse for, what I did, and you can feel disappointed in me for messing with a stranger... but I was happy, I was admired... I was loved, even if it wasn't meant to last long."

Lifetime of misery for few moments of bliss and solace and even now... it seemed a fair trade.