Sunbeam Lair broken down and dirty

She knew he meant no harm yet she couldn't allow herself to look him in the eyes. She had broken it...broken something she meant to keep.Eyes wild she resisted the urge to shy away from Jolon. He was next to her..soothing her. She let a shuddering sigh escaped her body spasming with the urge to run. Then Asterr came and the female's scent filled her nose. It would've been pleasant, maybe soothing but Avannon could smell the milky scent of pregnancy and her eyes widened in horror. What if she was to bear his children? She moaned but opened her mouth to answer her leader's question. The incident flashed in her mind and she stifled a whimper " h...he...claimed me...I said no...I said no and he forced me.. He used me while I fought...and he ran off. I have him a nasty wound on a forepaw" a savage laugh slipped out of her and then she was trembling once more "he turned around and tore my face open" she said in a whisper so quiet she doubted she would be heard. She didn't want Asterr to know her shame...her weakness. She couldn't even protect herself! " I don't understand...he fixed my leg. He was so nice, such a gentleman. Then he turned around and mocked me...told me I wanted it" she whimpered standing with her head hung and her tail tucked. She inadvertently moved closer to Jolon, her flank pressed against his fur.