Sunbeam Lair broken down and dirty

Taking a deep breath and holding it for a moment she tried to calm herself somewhat. Jolon had stayed near her despite Asterr's obvious command. why did Asterr want jolon to move away? He might be the one thing keeping her from leaving reality. Asterr told jolon not to touch her and avannon swore she could she a flash of anger in her chieftess's eyes, though that quickly disappeared. She wanted jolon to stay..she needed him. Panic gripped her, squeezing her chest until she began to hyperventilate "no no no...please" she panted wanting to move closer to jolon yet afraid she would trigger something in asterr. The woman had asked if she had his name. She whimpered as her mind reluctantly scanned through the memories "Judas. I don't know his pack but he was looking for someone named Mordecai" she responded her breathing steadying out. Taking a breathe for courage she moved forward and touched her nose to Asterr's shoulder and spoke her voice pleading " i am unaware of what he has done to you, but please don't take him away from me. I...I need him. I mean no disrespect when I ask...but please let me go near him. I am afraid to be alone and I would like nobody but jolon by my side. Please allow him to comfort me. " She asked rushing her words with her tail tucked.