Madness and selfishness easily coincide

Sitri had bodies on his mind and soul and he regretted them, but it had been all he knew. He had been born a servant a slave, it just so happened that he had been marked in favor for the queen. He could have easily ended up like any of the others, as a blood monger or a healer or a puppsitter or a warrior. Any of those things, but because he had borne the curse of good looks he had been taken in by the queen and turned into a twisted, broken, forlorn creature that now stood before the masses and god no more repenting for his sins than learning from them. He had done what he had done simply because he had been taught to do so. When you nothing but blood shed you tended to do the blood shedding.

Sitri looked at him he did not know the word justify. did not know what it meant. Sitri is sorry Ira, but he does not understand what you mean by Justify, what is this word? Sitri did what he did, because it was all he knew. He was born into this Princeling born to the red eyed one and the slave. Sitri was born a slave. I knew nothing else. Perhaps if he had been taught the difference between things or what a moral conscience was he would not have done those things. However, the queen had made sure to keep the brute stupid and child like so she could use him for her every whim. As he was learning things here and now he was realizing that he would have preferred not to do any of those things and he may have been able to save one, but he would have died too and then what could he have done, but be dead. The most he had been able to do was give some of the innocents a quick death, he did not draw it out like so many others, and he had brought them extra food when he could, taught them how to be good slaves quiet slaves. If they were quiet and good and stayed in the shadows they would not bear the wounds. He had taken the blame for things he had not done to save another from becoming a chew toy, but he did not see those as good things. He had just done them there was no rhyme or reason to it and he did not think it made him good or respectful or anything it just spared the youths from suffering the scars he bore.

Sitri did not argue about the loyalty as he was conditioned to keep his mouth shut. Though for a moment he wished he could overcome that certain flaw of his. Sitri met Jinx after entire pack was killed but sitri. He wasn't sure what had killed them all, just that when he came back from tracking and hunting they were all dead. He had only been gone for 2 days.