Noctisardor Bypass But there are things that the Homilies and hymns won't teach ya

AW ~~ Anyone welcome to cheer the poor bab up.

She was lonely.

She missed him.

Sure, she had her friends, her packmates. But that wasn't the same. Perhaps she had been foolish to believe in love again - perhaps she should have never approached Knew on that day. But, alas... she had. And she couldn't reverse the events. But she wished she could.

The last month or so had been such hard work - the others had been there and worked too, but they were all happy. They had someone to live for - and Gwen didn't. She hurt inside. Really bad. Especially when she saw Cebra and Mawk together - heck, even the friendly little gestures between Horosk and Semira. It pained her. She wanted something that she couldn't have. Something she'd never been able to have.

It had always been taken from her.

Love.  Why could she not have someone in this world to love? She had tried - oh she had tried so hard. She wanted to keep her love with Knew. She had wanted something to grow out of it. Maybe even a family. A lasting relationship, at the very least. But he had gone, and she was all alone.  Even now, she lay alone. She was in her den, curled up. She didn't even have parents, or siblings to talk too. The pain was too much. Especially now that Mawk and Cebra were having pups - that could have been her. She could have had that with Knew. But he wasn't here and that would never happen. Not unless he returned, which by now she believed he wouldn't.

A small, salty tear rolled down her cheek. Her eyes were scrunched up and she was trying her best just to hold it all together. Maybe she would stay like this forever, a single broken soul among the cheerful. Maybe that's what she was meant to be.