rise to the rush

Thistle watched as he thought hard and then no answer came and just like that he did not deny it and he didn't tell her she was wrong. And just like that her heart felt shattered and she realized that she had always be meant to have a broken heart, the minute she fell for him. Rather than make her feel better it made her feel worse.

Bending her head at his next words, No Ragnar you gave that away long before me you just didn't realize it until you met me that you could. So I am second best always have been second best. You are an unfair man Ragnar and sometimes I really really hate you for making me love you, but I do love you and there's no changing that so i'll settle for second best. She kept her head bowed and though he started kissing and soft touches she wanted to run and scream and claw and bite. Make him bleed just a little bit so he could feel a fraction of the pain he put her through. Because he was either clueless and had no idea half the time he was hurting her or he just didn't care she hadn't decided which one it was so with a soft sigh half sob she leaned into him and took what he was willing to give her right now.

Standing swiftly to hide the tear tracks she brushed past him her flank gliding across his chest and she tickled his nose gently with her tail Are you coming? And she strode towards the forest, realizing as she went that she would suffer for this always. It was simple really her husband was a jarl, a father and now had two wives he had been barely able to make time for her before and now with two he wouldn't have time at all and she realized that she refused to let him treat anyone as he treated her, so she would be the one to suffer she would take the silence and the minutes that he had where he had it, but he would spend most of his time with his children and his other wife, because she was fairly certain Nerian needed him more than she and Thistle would not let him hurt her. She would leave this world and go with a broken heart however long it took as long as the broken heart didn't kill her first. But she loved him and she would deal with it, because of that.

She froze for a moment and looked back and spoke softly Let me talk to Nerian before you do so I can tell her i am okay with it. I do not want her to spurn your advances in fear for my anger and jealousy. Then she continued on.