Northstar Vale If only, if only

@Collision
set right after this thread

She could not believe this, her mind wanted to go into a complete shutdown. Her heart wanted to cease its beating, to have her body drop like a marionette with her strings cut. Ah, but she couldn't, she had a child to think of. Her boy would grow up without a father, he has lost his siblings and the man in his life. How could she make him a man that her husband would be proud of, how could she do this alone? How could she be in a place that only reminded her of him, with an emperor that took him and her dignity.

She wanted to head straight to her den but Collision told her to wait, to find him after the news of her dead lover but she whispered a location for him to find her. She stood under a cherry tree that kept them hidden from sight, a place where she could look over the valley below. Oh if she had not had a child, that he waa not her last connection to the man she loved.. she might have thrown herself down that very cliff side. Instead she stared up at the branches of the mighty tree, waiting for the chocolate man to join her.