Lost Creek Hollow Little Bird

@Ash Star

Esma had not agreed to John's offer to join him right away, but the thought had stayed with her for the next days, while she figured out, what she wanted to do. Riverclan was her home after all, even if she had not connected particularly well with any of the people here. Besides Ash Star could still teach her so much about the ways of gods, but Esma's perspective had changed. She no longer saw her mom's rituals and actions as something of value and meaning. More often it felt to her as if it was just another game that her mother had kept on playing way into the adulthood. She sincerely wanted to believe in the existance of Atka and Sos, truly feel connected to them, but she could not. In the end... they were not her gods. 

For Esma, who would always have millions of questions in order to understand the order of the world and the realms of the living and the divine, having something to anchor her being to was important. Over time its significance grew and overshadowed everything else. Even loyalty to her mother. Therefore on the day she had finally made her decision to set on her own pilgrimage, she sought out her mother to say her goodbyes.