Wapun Meadow i am close when they are far

Star sighed deeply. "Lots happened. I'll tell you... Everything. I think I trust you more than most of my packmates right now 'cause they hate me. I haven't told them reasons though." Star said. Then she took a deep breath before she began, making eye contact with Dovev. "One night I was hungry. I was kinda trying to lose weight, but I hadn't eaten in a day or two, so I was hungry. Paarthurnax was here, and I don't know much about pregnancy and stuff, but I figured her kids would be born any day. I didn't want to take away the newborn's food from the caches, so I decided to catch something small for me. A mouse or something. This is embarrassing for me, since I'm trying to be a gamekeeper, but I couldn't find or catch anything. Bad luck. So I figured I'd just eat some plant, I heard some are edible. So I walked along the Creek and found some mushrooms. I ate them. I fell asleep really fast. I woke up the next day... And this wasn't really me like normal, the 'shrooms must have been weird. I felt restless... Bloodlust.. I felt like causing trouble for fun. So in a haze I went and trespassed. I don't remember many details, but two wolves beat me up, one of which I came to hate. A lot. Anyway, he knocks me out, I wake up underground somewhere. And for the next few weeks, I'm nearly starved, and often tortured or interrogated, mostly tortured. I hate them all, Dovev. They hurt me so much... One man painted me with my own blood, which is the reason for the pawprint on my head and spiral on my shoulder. It was terrible. And the one I hate the most, he brings me out one day. And there's Scimitar, Fal, and Kieran. And they have to fight three of the ones who hurt me the most. They got wounded and lost, but got me back. So all in all, we may have a war on our paws. All cause of me." She sighed. Tears gathered in her eyes, which she willed to stay in, but they fell anyway. But she hated to look weak.