Redhawk Caldera all for nothing

Pantaleimon didn't really want anything in the world but to be beside Peregrine in the moment, and forget about everything that was going on in her mind. Life was confusing, even though she had never been happy before she had been thrust into this life. But with her new freedom came difficult choices and emotions that she had never had the need to show or work with before. And beside that was the war raging between Redtail Rise and Redhawk Caldera. What could they do about that? If only Perry and Reek would get along; it would already have taken much of the complexity out of the situation.

Though there were many things that she wanted to say when Perry offered his help, Pan wasn't quite sure what to say. "I visited Reek at Redtail Rise," Pan murmured. "I just... It's painful, I - I guess, that we can't... That our packs are at odds. I wish there was something I could do..." Pantaleimon felt like a terrible traitor for lying in Peregrine's face about her worries. She was worried about the war that raged between the packs, of course, but that wasn't why she was presently confused. Pan felt like a dumbass for busying herself with keeping her gender identity from Peregrine rather than actually fully focussing on the war between their packs like she said she did. It made her feel like a terrible wolf, not only to lie to Peregrine, but also to be so focussed on herself at a time like this.