Ravensblood Forest feel the ocean as it breathes, shivering teeth

tags for ref, AW!

finding @Athris should have brought her some peace — she should at least be able to get a full night's sleep, right? her mind has other plans for her, though; she can't stop thinking about @Zamael, about her father, about the tribes. she wishes they would all just die. or maybe that they'd never existed at all, and nevermind that she wouldn't exist either — that doesn't seem so bad right now.
the forest is so, so dark. she's too tired to do anything but wander clumsily, paws crunching over dead leaves and snow. tears creep down her face slowly but steadily, unrelenting though she doesn't quite feel them. oh, she feels the cold wetness trekking down her cheeks, and she feels the heat as it wells up under her eyelids — but she doesn't quite feel the grief she knows must be cutting through her now. she must be sad, right? that must be why she's crying. she just doesn't feel sad. she feels tired and numb and angry at the world, and she just wants to go home.