Swiftcurrent Creek Pick you up, let you down

He held her gaze as she spoke, every one of her words making him feel worse. He wasn't even sure he could feel worse, but it seemed his minds ability to torment him with guilt was endless. And of course he hadn't been with any of the other women; like he had thought multiple since realizing what he had done, he was done destroying his life. He had agreed to be her mate, and he wouldn't mess that up again, even if it was mostly out of necessity. Her eyes shined with the threat of tears before she looked away and uttered her apology. Kavik closed his eyes and sighed once more. Myrren, he said softly. If you refuse to let me carry all the blame here then I guess there is nothing I can do about that, but you have not ruined my life. He did that all on his own, and he would not let her continue to think that she was at fault for that. He was the one who had defiled his vows and betrayed the love of his life. I don't think I can stand for you to carry that burden, he said, exhausted eyes trained on her profile.