Grouse Thicket thou bleeding piece of earth

Nico didn't know what the hell he felt when Aeronwyn silently confirmed Shalon's words. He didn't want to think about this, he didn't want this life - he wanted simplicity and happiness but of course, he couldn't have that. No, life was full of sorrows and hardship and pain, with a few slivers of happiness. Nicolas was done with this bullshit, he didn't want to deal with this anymore, he didn't want to deal with anyone. He just wanted to have a simple life again, without his stupid mental illness and stupid people. Ughhhhhhhhh, his mind felt as if it was about to explode.

What was with both of them having feelings for him, anyways? Nicolas wasn't even that great, in fact, he was pretty sure there were thousands of other wolves who were better than him, in every way. Why him? Okay, obviously he liked the fact that he had two pretty girls falling for him, but not now. He couldn't deal with both right now, not when he was probably the weakest wolf alive in this moment.

When they were both done speaking, Nico lifted his crown and fixed his green eyes on Shalon. "Okay," he said, exhaling sharply. "You were my friend once, and a packmate, once," he stated, confirming the fact that he was no longer returning to the Court. "I don't want to endanger the Court. So this is goodbye, I guess," there was a bitter look in his eyes as he turned away from the girl, unwilling to say anything more. Once, perhaps, he would've developed feelings for her, but now, he felt emotionless and numb, and truthfully, now, he couldn't care less. Nico walked away, allowing Aeronwyn to take over and do whatever she wanted to do. He would wait for her some distance away.