January 06, 2017, 06:15 AM
She had, had she not? Her anger had consumed her before in the months that she had lived on the Isle, and she had refused the acknowledge that it had any hold on her. Even after the great anger at herself had caused her to cross the border of this same pack and to seek strife with its leaders, had her favour violence over words many, many times.
And now, as she in a burning frenzy felt her scruff grabbed and the nauseating feeling that come with having ones head whipped to an fro and the pain that came with tear flesh on her scruff and on her flank, where the other had landed a blow. And as she tore her scruff from the female that she identified as Shalon, fangs driving now for the stupid bitch's throat, the feralness in her gaze having her ignore the pain and damage the other was inflicting.
her attack snapped short, and the feralness died down, as her brain realized a number of things. She had attacked a mother. A family. She smelled now the scent of pups and milk and warmth, realized the other had gone. She had trespassed, brought strife and rage to a few she had always hated.
And why, exactly, did she hate them? She could argue that they were arrogant and stupid and full of themselves, but it had been her who had crossed the border on a day filled with self loathing, belittled and attacked the rules, made an enemy out of the court for no reason other than to sate her anger.
upon realizing these things did her anger die as a flame deprived of oxygen will, and instead came regret and guilt and a self loathing.
What had she done?
she moved again, but it was with charged steps and a pale pelt red with blood that she fled, shaking off the fangs that pierced her pelt and running for the border, all her energy placed into those few steps that would take her over the border and then due north, should her attackers allow it. For now she realized that no matter how much she believed that she had changed, she had not. She caused pain and sorrow and fear, and she hated herself for it, for so many other things.
And now, as she in a burning frenzy felt her scruff grabbed and the nauseating feeling that come with having ones head whipped to an fro and the pain that came with tear flesh on her scruff and on her flank, where the other had landed a blow. And as she tore her scruff from the female that she identified as Shalon, fangs driving now for the stupid bitch's throat, the feralness in her gaze having her ignore the pain and damage the other was inflicting.
her attack snapped short, and the feralness died down, as her brain realized a number of things. She had attacked a mother. A family. She smelled now the scent of pups and milk and warmth, realized the other had gone. She had trespassed, brought strife and rage to a few she had always hated.
And why, exactly, did she hate them? She could argue that they were arrogant and stupid and full of themselves, but it had been her who had crossed the border on a day filled with self loathing, belittled and attacked the rules, made an enemy out of the court for no reason other than to sate her anger.
upon realizing these things did her anger die as a flame deprived of oxygen will, and instead came regret and guilt and a self loathing.
What had she done?
she moved again, but it was with charged steps and a pale pelt red with blood that she fled, shaking off the fangs that pierced her pelt and running for the border, all her energy placed into those few steps that would take her over the border and then due north, should her attackers allow it. For now she realized that no matter how much she believed that she had changed, she had not. She caused pain and sorrow and fear, and she hated herself for it, for so many other things.
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Paint it black - by Aeronwyn - January 02, 2017, 05:49 AM
RE: Paint it black - by RIP Eden - January 02, 2017, 01:31 PM
RE: Paint it black - by Aeronwyn - January 02, 2017, 01:36 PM
RE: Paint it black - by RIP Eden - January 02, 2017, 01:40 PM
RE: Paint it black - by Aeronwyn - January 02, 2017, 01:46 PM
RE: Paint it black - by Shalon - January 02, 2017, 02:12 PM
RE: Paint it black - by Sylvas Streiter - January 02, 2017, 08:10 PM
RE: Paint it black - by RIP Eden - January 03, 2017, 09:54 PM
RE: Paint it black - by Aeronwyn - January 06, 2017, 06:15 AM
RE: Paint it black - by Shalon - January 06, 2017, 11:46 AM
RE: Paint it black - by Sylvas Streiter - January 09, 2017, 08:44 AM