Moonspear I lose myself tonight

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terance was in awe, though not necessarily a good awe. wraen was saying all these things and... truthfully? he could only think of mean things to say. ‘then leave,’ he wanted to say, ‘no one asked you to come find me...’ or maybe a grand ‘then why didn’t you try to be around me? why didn’t you treat me like that?’ or ‘well it’s not my fault i like them better than you!’ terance hadn’t seen much of wraen since she’d come here and as much of that that was his fault? it was just as much her own. 

but this was wraen— not some random wolf. he couldn’t be too hard on her... he just didn’t have it in him to be actively mean to his sister. either wraen or Sarah, for that matter... this was serious, not some playful banter. but terance couldn’t control the emotion building up— he was mad. he just couldn’t believe all the words coming out of her mouth. 

“i’m sorry about sarah,” he decided to say, since it was the only string of words he could put together that wasn’t mean. and he understood that problem. “I wish you would’ve told me about her...” he added, kind of feeling like he was in a similar position. if she hadn’t kept all this bottled up, maybe they wouldn’t be in this position. 

“wraen you don’t know how miserable I was without you and sarah. i missed you so much, i dont know what I’d be doing if you hadn’t come. i’m sorry i neglected our relationship.”

“but... you know why i left— and sarah. i wanted to be out in the real world, meet new people do new things... and i found that here. i know they’re sort of rash and all that but hydra and Alya and Lyra are my friends... and rannoch too. i found something here, i care about them. they’re all running around with this war and a murder and my problems are so minuscule... they’re not worth it, wraen. and I’m fine... i really am,” he tried to explain... but maybe he just made it worse. his ears splayed.