Whitefish River and here we go, life's waiting to begin

Though Evergreen seems to have caught on to Winterbourne's obsession with normalcy, he hasn't quite gotten the full picture; it goes beyond the fact that they aren't husband and wife, tied deeply with his ideas about who he is and who Evergreen is. In his mind, he's still a broken boy; a scraggly, awkward teenager in the shoes of a grown man, oversized suit stained and rumpled, eyes dark and sunken from all the overtime spent trying to perform a role he was never prepared for. Not quite a child anymore, but not fully adult, not on the same level as those like Evergreen and Ira who can do things like create stability and lead others. Compared to them, he feels like he is a child; or at the very least, rather immature.
Ira is normal, He says after a long moment, voice defeated. What if you would be happier with her? That means I'm in the way, so it is my fault.