Greatwater Lake Sebastian being Sebastian

Sebastian's heart was beating fast, he had been running for quite a while and stopped when he reached the edges of the lake. Now all his adrenaline, anger and frustration had been drained from his body the young wolf could only collapse on the bank of the lake with sadness in his heart. He had failed again. The melodramatic side of the wolf was overruling him. He felt he had failed with every single aspect of his life. His brief victory had shattered like a piece of ice falling on the ground. He wanted to get to know his father, and even though he had not liked living in those dark woods he would have done it, for Burke. But the male didn't feel the same commitment to him apparently. He had left Haven with Burke. Not a very smart move, he hoped she managed to escape. In his anger he had left the injured female there, not very gallant of him. Sebastian had the feeling she wouldn't stick around now. The grey male was also not sure where his brother Nathaniel was. Probably heading out on his own. Aduin was happy at RHC and Pearl was all the way at the beach.

Sebastian felt conflicted. He felt terribly alone and sad, yet, he didn't feel like seeing any of the ones he had been close with. They would try and cheer him up and the young male felt like he should be sad for awhile to just process all that happened recently. He was on another cross roads. To his left was RHC and to his right would be a new open world. He promised to return to RHC when he was done with his father. He couldn't break a promise but thinking of the Caldera left him with a constricting feeling. If he would join that pack again he could never leave, and if he would, they wouldn't accept him back. They wanted their members to be loyal and Sebastian wondered if he could give them that eternal loyalty. He wanted a family of his own, he wanted a mate and he might want a shot at leadership one day. Those were all things he had the feeling the Caldera couldn't offer him. He would never try and kick Peregrine, Fox, Finley or Elwood from their position. But him being a normal member they would also never allow him breeding rights. His possible path and promises conflicted with his own wants in life. He needed advise or a distraction.