Hushed Willows now she's in me and i can't let her go

way to make her eat her thoughts, seabreeze. brilliance tries to imagine what it would be like to not have papa or mali. with the absence of her mama and solomon, she doesn’t have to think as hard. just… twice as bad, or whatever. besides, she has her family now and hers remains in shambles, following them around like they didn’t once matter.
 
brilliance shakes her head, not sure what she wants. in a weird way, she still wants her mama but she knows deep down she’d never accept her back. she’s abandoned them twice now and she’s hardly survived the second go-round.
 
still, she hears the sadness in her voice and perhaps the only reason she comes in neutral with a response and a quiet, “i don’t know.”