Redhawk Caldera i may be crazy, don't mind me.

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Eljay would not be consoled. He felt so beyond her reach, so overwhelming, so consuming and hopeless. The feeling in her heart tightened as she battled herself. She could end this so easily. All she had to do was go to him and offer him reassurance. A hug from her and this would all be over and her baby would feel safe and happy again. But she couldn't. Not only would it only serve to perpetuate Eljay's self-destructive behavior, but in some terrible, dark place deep inside, the thought was simply repugnant. She loved her son beyond words, but she could not stand this side of him.

Only Elwood could've broke through the torrent of self-deprication and emotion that was consuming Fin at that moment. She gave him a pained look as he told her to go, unwilling to obey while simultaneously grateful to be given the order. She caught a glimpse of Lagan looking miserable. She tried to give him a look that told him it was okay, not to be scared or worried or upset. That she wasn't mad at him or his brother, or anyone. This would be over soon and everything would go back to normal. It would be okay.

Her gaze shifted to Eljay as he moaned her name and another stab of irritation took her. She'd loved being called 'Mommy' once upon a time. Not anymore. Not like this. Her eyes met his as he stared at her, begging, pleading for love that he already had but just couldn't see or understand for some reason. Fin just didn't love him right, even as she did it with her whole being. She'd tried everything until she herself had been on the brink of destruction and she still just could not do it well enough to make him happy.

Finley didn't know what to do, but in moments like these, she knew to trust her mate. It was the only option she had, and he was always right. She sucked in a slow, steadying breath as she settled her gaze as calmly as she could on Eljay's face, trying to ignore how it was contorted with misery and hurt. "It's okay," she said quietly to her son before taking one last, long look, then turning and forcing herself to walk stiffly off towards the heart of the Caldera to wait for her mate.