Nocturne Summit Easy to be just you and me

She immediately regretted admitting her attraction. Why had she done that? She had never had any problem keeping things strictly platonic between them before. And when he pointed out that her admission complicated things, she glanced over at him, guilt in her expression. She didn't want to ruin things between them or with anyone else in the pack, and going any further down this path was sure to cost her everything she had worked so hard to build. She had no idea what to say next; she didn't want to make things more complicated. Luckily, he quickly changed the subject, saving her the awkward job of finding something to say. 

I haven't, she said. The closest I've been was with a boy I grew up with. His name was Emrik. We were very close and eventually, I developed feelings for him. I didn't tell him until right before I left, which was a shame because it turned out that he felt the same way, she continued, a wistful smile forming on her face. Anyway, I left the pack soon after, so we never got to see where it would have gone. She thought about him often and hoped he was doing well. When I came to Teekon, I wandered too much to form any real bonds with anyone until I came to Moonspear and grew to care about all of you, she finished. 

How long have you and Amekaze been together? Speedy asked since they were on the subject of being in love. Maybe talking about the alphess would help remind them what all was at stake here.