Blacktail Deer Plateau Booty Wurk

There was a stirring somewhere in the back of her cloudy mind that said this was wrong. It was an annoying little voice of conscience that said this was not something to do when she could barely control herself. She shouldnt make this choice, not when she was so confused on her emotions. Now when she didn't understand emotions at all because she'd had them buried and numbed for months and months before meeting Corvus. She felt Corvus stiffen against her body but she didn't move, instead continuing her affections until he spoke and she whined with disappointment, sounding so pathetically unlike herself even she stiffened with disgust. His words made her feel the need to defend herself, her face feeling hot beneath her fur like a child being scolded for doing something silly and immature. "You think I'm not-" her words were cut off by the playful nip to her ear and she immediately yipped, clumsily getting to her paws and leaping backwards, eyes focused over Corvus's shoulder and....

and watching Issun run away. Immediately she froze, a feeling of shame rising. "Issun...Issun wait!" she shouted but it was too late, he was gone into the distance. She felt sick to her stomach though she couldn't understand why. She had already admitted that she'd take Corvus as a lover if ever came the opportunity. She definitely had some feelings that were more than platonic. Did she feel the same for Issun? She went over the memories, how she felt comfortable around him, how she felt like she didn't have to always be tough, she could be more than a warrior. She remembered how he had come to the plateau for her, stayed for her and watched over her when she was injured from the bear. She remembered goofing off with him, getting high with him, embracing him. Her heart felt suddenly inexplicably heavy, like when she imagined losing Corvus again. Did she also have feelings for Issun that were more than platonic? She felt the horrifying answer was yes. It was horrifying because she'd realised it too late.

But why had he run? It made no sense to her. Then again she wouldn't nescessarily want to watch a friend try to be intimate with someone else. Was it more than that though? Suddenly she felt angry. Had Issun been hiding feelings? Did he not like her around Corvus? Was that why he had avoided her ever since she had said she was happy Corvus returned? He had no right to promise not to hurt her, then act like she had some disease and then run off when she decided Corvus was good company! Surprisingly all this had gone through her head in the few seconds after she had called after Issun and she focused back on Corvus, now very uncomfortably suddenly sober "Issun saw that...Im sorry. I don't know what that was. I...why would he run? I'm so confused" she sounded broken. She sounded ashamed, hurt, angry and confused all at once.