Redhawk Caldera damaged

Pantaleimon noticed Perry's faltering expression right away. She imagined that it was because he realised how difficult it would be for her, too. Not because he knew the things she knew, wanted to tell him so desperately, but still didn't really have the courage to tell; he didn't know any of those things, so it couldn't be that. It had to be because even as she was, Pantaleimon would unlikely become a real parent here, in Redhawk Caldera.

When Peregrine said she was sort of like a father, Pantaleimon smiled fondly. She did sort of feel like one (well, more of a mother, but 'father' was a fine title too). Her smile faltered a little when Perry continued to say that she was maybe more of an uncle, because Pan liked to consider herself more of a parent than a weird uncle that had a relationship on the side with their father. That sounded... Well, wrong. "Yeah," Pan said awkwardly. "I - I guess so." Pantaleimon decided it didn't really matter what Perry, Fox, or the firebirds considered her to be for the pups, as long as they knew she cared for them.

"Have you ever felt like... Uhm, different? I mean, as if everyone's seeing you, but they're not, like, really, uhm... seeing you, or - or like you're hiding some parts, or uhm, I dunno..." Pantaleimon trailed off there, figuring that none of what she was saying probably made sense to Perry. Maybe she was just confused and emotional over the whole puppy thing, and that was why she was trying to say things but ended up not managing to get them out of her throat properly. "Never mind, I - I'm just rambling," Pan added, and she shot Perry an awkward and apologetic smile.