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Pantaleimon understood that it had to be really hard for anyone else to understand how Pan felt. She didn't always understand it herself, really, figuring that there must be something wrong with her. She still thought there probably was; why else would she be born this way, and in the pack and culture that she had been born into? Perhaps she had done something terrible in a previous life, for which the Goddesses now punished her. Pan simply didn't know, and since she did not understand all of it herself, she understood that others could not, either. Perry seemed about as confused as Reek had been when she told him the gist of it.

As for his questions, Pantaleimon tried to think of a way that she could explain how she felt. She nodded meekly before trying to show by using an example: "Well, uhm, like... The other day Fox and I - we were talking about pups. And before I knew it, I told her that I wanted to bear pups some day too. So uhm, I quickly corrected myself, but the thought of being pregnant just made me so happy for a moment. And there was this one time I... They -- I was sort of picked for, y'know, the mating rituals back home, but when it came down to it I just... couldn't." Pan grimaced before she solemnly added: "I... I must sound like a crazy wolf." She wouldn't blame Perry if he thought she was crazy or misguided: heck, even Pan herself thought that maybe she was just making life harder than need be. But after she had spent so much time as a male in the Nereides culture, Pan still felt like a female. She didn't know how to convince anyone else of how she felt, because to her, it was mostly just the feeling that had always been there and hadn't faltered even when the rest of the world had tried to teach her hard-handedly that she was male.