Otter Creek I'll [m]ake your timber shiver

Why not?

The question had him stumbling over his own thoughts, trying to piece together exactly what made it wrong. It hadn't felt wrong being with the stranger at the shore, but that was there and this was here. His home was close by, his family within walking distance. They could come searching for him, they could find him, and then he'd be cast out. Where such thoughts stemmed from, it was unknown, for he'd never been told growing up that it was wrong for two males to want something more than a friendship from one another. However, he also hadn't been told that it was right, or even told of it at all, for that matter. It was assumptions that led him to think the way that he did, and, unbeknownst to him, each one was wrong. He'd not be thrown aside and abandoned, he'd not be looked down upon, he would simply remain as he'd always been. This, however, was not a conclusion he could draw. "Because it just isn't," Xan had shot back, words strained. It bothered him to realize that he could produce no better answers, but, perhaps, that would eventually assist him with coming to terms with reality.

Without much warning, the space between them had been lost. The other's nose had started tracing its way along his body, much the same as had been done to Maude days prior. When his hips had been neared, his body betrayed his words as he'd grown aroused. And when his touch was no longer there, he'd found himself wishing that it be returned, but was met only with words. Spoken in hushed tones, warm breath fanning out over his ear—nothing about Adonis' doings had made it any easier to resist him, instead drawing the albino to a point that he'd felt himself almost incapable of turning back from. "No," he'd said anyways, shifting uncomfortably. "It doesn't feel right." It was an obvious lie, one that even a child could probably see straight through. And as if to make that clearer, he'd unconsciously leaned towards the other pale body, seeking out the contact that had been taken away from him.