Moonspear What Have I Done?

Thank you! It's a very intense thread!

Judas clearly didn't know what to say. She met his eyes, and it was clear that he knew that she had heard. She glanced away, down to the herb as he commented on it. She swallowed and nodded slowly, not sure what else to say. "Yeah...I...don't guess it will." She managed, her voice small, still tinted with confusion.

She stared at it a long time, the herb. It was the first time that herbs had disappointed her. They normally did their job so well, helping to cure a sick wolf. Yet Judas...not this herb nor any other that she knew of would help him. She still wasn't fully sure what was wrong. Her mind told her the voice had to be fake, a projection, an image, a memory. It was Judas...just lost in his own mind. Yet she was fearful.

When she finally brought her eyes back up, she saw him twitching and shaking. Her eyes narrowed and unconsciously she took a step back before she could stop herself. And as she considered what was happening here, what was going on...she became angry in a way that surprised her. 

"I'm not afraid of you, Judas." She said firmly, forcing herself to believe it was true. She took a step forward, then another. She met his gaze with fierce determination. "You are only you, Judas. This voice...it only controls you because you believe in it. It isn't real, it's your mind itself. A memory of your fat...the male who sired you, maybe. But it isn't real. It can't hurt me if you don't let it. You are in control. You can make it go away for good, just like a herb and a sickness." She took another step forward. She was still a fair distance from him, not close enough to touch, but a few more steps and she would be able to touch him. 

Her hair prickled, her body knew something here was dangerous but she refused to believe. "I believe in you, Judas. I trust you. You can beat this, you can beat him. Your father is dead and you have a new life in Moonspear. Malice forgave you for what you did, and so did Mitanni. I am your friend, Judas and I know you can beat this."