Northstar Vale When Stars Align

Everything seemed to swarm around him as masculine voices thundered back and forth in protest against one another. Collision's boldness was met with, honestly, a less excruciating consequence than he had thought was due. He expected more. Perhaps the new Emperor was a one hit wonder. Collision wasn't looking to be up in arms today...so perhaps it was for the best.

 It didn't hurt him. 

 He had acted exactly the same as the resident Count as he had as a supposed lowly peasant. There would be no reaction from him for this.

 Until the man decided this place was no longer refuge for Awenfen. How dare he?! Reiko what the hell? Do something! The anger inside him would not quiet. Awenfen spoke her own thoughts and Collision admired her strength and her beauty in a moment of defeat. This would not stand. Would not last. This leader was too quick to make his judgements. He lacked rationality. Why remove the one person that had tended to both Reiko and made sure the children were fed when Reiko was out tending to her duties? Pathetic. 

 Hime's voice broke throught he resonance and Collision's eyes darted to the fallen Empress. His body jerked forward out of pure instinct, but then he stopped. No....She was doing nothing for them and he would do nothing for her. He kept his tongue stilled. He was caught between irrational anger that he was not accustomed to and to the promises he had made to others here. Vespera could need him. Yuudai could need him. There were so many that he still needed to be here for....Not Reiko. If she asked anything of him he would decline. If she needed him he would shrug it all away. 

 But could he? Could he tell her no? Even with the anger that festered in his heart he still cared for her....and harming her, even indirectly, could bring harm, in some fashion, to the children he had silently promised to protect at all costs. In Kaistleoki he promised no harm would ever befall her babies. Was a liar to be made out of him? An example already had been. 

 Rage from the indecisiveness that plagued him curdled against his very soul. Why did he feel so intensely? Betrayal. The word finally understood. Reiko had betrayed them all...hadn't she?

 As she lay there and he stilled he watched as wolves, wolves that were wronged by her decision making, began to crowd around her and grow worrisome. Someone would take care of her. He didn't need to. Would he if he could? Lay there. Suffer. This is done only at your hands. He hated these thoughts. Hated that they didn't seem to stop. Collision had made a decision and was now going to act upon it. He turned his back to the wolves that had gathered and took his leave of them. You deserve this. Do you need me? Look at what you caused. I'm here for you. I hate you. And on and on his thoughts contradicted themselves.


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