Moonspear alianiilik ≡

He was not sure how to take her apology, and it felt heavy in front of him. It's.. okay, he sighed, quietly, half an assurance for himself too along the very way. It was fine, he wanted to say but he couldn't relay it just yet. Not as the magnitude of the rest came and that was.. it, something that struck him close to the heart when it concerned his few-remaining siblings--especially one as conflicting and complex as what they all shared with Revui. He swallowed thickly and looked away, eyes, throat burning. His brother had been so far removed from them for so long, it was not easy to imagine his present. Even the withered shape of him that had mended on their edges had seemed more like a husk than the sharp-toothed last brother of his he had once known and watch grow from nothing.

And like so many instances, he was coming to know, he couldn't know understand why it had come to that. What had happened, what changed, to force this rift..? Jarilo tried to relax once he realized he was gritting his teeth and a deep breath later, he had to pull it together so they could get home, dry, safe, comfortable..

His thoughts felt flooded, he tried to lift his heavy head a bit--because, right, somehow.. he had come not to belong to them any longer. Jarilo, left here now, forced to understand. The rituals of the dead.. he only dipped his toes in because someone had to, and guesswork at that. You did what you must.. All because of his brother. I am sorry you had to, for him, but.. he felt his voice want to waver again, sorrow thick and too heavy before it could turn to worse, he quieted. At least Keres had been there, and Kukutux had been there for Revui when there was no one left for him. He deserved any peace in the end, he murmured, and maybe, it was what their parents would have wanted.

After a long pause, he felt it had not set in yet but the fact remained. Revui was dead, Arcturus lost.. all proof that nothing good awaited any of them off this Spear. Do you think..  it was from the injuries that had brought him here? he dared to ask, low. He didn't know what type of life his brother had made away from here--not after leaving them on the bad note he had. Or did something else happen? Considering he was not about to underestimate his brother's penchant for chaos, it could be any manner of things.