Firefly Glen i don't care so why do you

She standed defiant before him. Holland did not even blink. "No" he responds, blunt as ever but at least truthful about it "you're not a monster." Because he was the monster in this situation. His sins could not be so easily washed away. He could not so easily admit to shit like he had moments ago. It was an emotional response he was regretting. 

"You don't kill because you're told to" he goes on "you don't kill for pleasure. But the others do, Keres. They won't wait for you to decide. They already have. Yearling or adult, they don't fucking care" bile rose in the back of his throat at anyone he knew in the Teekons to be subjected to war "you say you're careful, but are you prepared to fight for your life? It is easy to defend others, but..."

He shakes his head irritably. "If you got caught, I would kill them. I'd kill them all. And I would not blink. I wouldn't weep for them. I wouldn't care. I'd just move on; because that's the sort of wolf I am" Because he was a monster tucked behind a relatively controlled exterior. Yet if that façade ever broke... If he was forced to act... He wouldn't be able to turn the switch off again so easily. "but it'd eat you up, wouldn't it?"