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That explained the question about pups, then, though Peregrine only dimly registered this connection. He paid rapt attention to Pan's explanation as he admitted that he wished to experience pregnancy and birth for himself. He went on to tell Peregrine about how he couldn't perform when selected for a mating ritual because of said gender identity crisis. Although this did shed some light on Pan's inner world, it begged as many questions as it answered. Actually, there were dozens more popping up in the Alpha's mind.

"Not crazy," he said. Maybe confused? he thought but knew better than to say out loud. This was clearly a very sensitive subject. "But... no matter how much you want it, you can't carry or deliver pups. It just... can't happen," he pointed out in a soft voice. "Right? So..." So what? All Peregrine could think now was, How miserable. No matter the cause of Pan's condition, it sounded incredibly unfortunate.

And what did this mean for their relationship? Peregrine suddenly felt a strange twist in his gut. He wished the Delta would have been up front about this from the start, though he guessed he understood why it was hard for Pan to admit. But this changed things, in the Alpha's perspective. Pan would always be male, externally, but if considered himself a lady on the inside... well, Peregrine had vowed only to dedicate his life to one woman: Fox. And what would she make of this?

Even if he and Fox could come to terms with it, what did this mean for Peregrine's and Pan's sexual future? What role did he (she?) hope to play, physically speaking? The more he thought about it, the less Peregrine felt like he could wrap his mind around the entire thing. It didn't change his feelings of affection toward Pantaleimon, nor even his attraction, but he looked at Pan with question marks in his jade eyes. He just didn't know how to fit all these pieces together at the moment.