Arrow Lake when all the things under the sky go free of time

she recoiled, of course, as she did whenever she or her family were put into a shaming light. she was particularly defensive of her sister's nonexistent honor, and he wondered what tragedy had befallen the two of them that had made her so irreparably attached. "and when they abandon you?" he growled, unable to help the way his voice lifted to challenge her; leaving a small part of him to wonder why it was so easy to fall into this black pit with her. when he would rather belittle god, than to speak to her with such misery.

"you would rather kill yourself trying to cling to them, rather than try to be happy on your own? or is this - this endless searching and grieving - the only thing that pleases you?" is it why i am not enough for you? he spoke his hurt, but the truth of it seemed to remain buried.