Panther Park I can't escape you

He didn't mean to shoot for sympathy points. He didn't mean to dump it on her. But it was the only way he could share it and have her understand that he wanted to want her. Cella was the only person on earth that he had been able to love fully and completely, and his doing so had destroyed her and the attempt at a life they wanted to make together. Even now, he blamed himself entirely for what had happened. He knew his mother was a monster, and he had gone through with marrying Cella anyway in secret. He shook. He cried. He had done a lot of crying the past week.
Takiyok's voice was soft. The tenderness in it soothed him as she tucked herself under him once more, and he pressed himself against her, melting into her, losing any facade of eloquence and control he'd been trying to hold onto.
Her northern coat was soft and full and he refused to let go. She said it didn't change anything, but he was so scared that she would need more from him. She would see the way he looked at Zephyr and it would hurt her, and he didn't want that at all. He didn't want to hurt her the way he'd gotten everyone in his life hurt. How are you so wonderful? He thought it, but was unable to make words.
It took him a while to let go and finally find his words again. He slowly broke their embrace. I... It sounds like, he spoke quite slowly as he struggled to maintain the composure he'd just found. You want us to be exclusive. I will tell Zephyr. We.. have a connection. He deserves to know, he said. He didn't like having to sever something that had seemed so promising and demote Zephyr to the friend zone, but Takiyok had been there through thick and thin. Taikon was willing to do whatever he needed to in order to make her happy, even if it meant sacrificing the freedom to explore his heart.