Ravenshook Cliffs [m] seal paw

you don't get it.
red leaf could not bring herself to look upon his handsome face, staring only down at the hefty paws which were half-visible from her hovel. her face scrunches into a pitiful scowl. you do not understand what it is like for me, chakliux. h-he had a hold on my soul, you know. he-- he owned me, my body, my claim, my spirit. i; her ears fall flat against the back of her head, her sodden feet suddenly pulled up toward her belly. i-i watched him break the amulet, when brave one was born, but that doesn't matter when you have blood on your hands.
but she was contradicting herself and her own thoughts, and this was evident in her tone. every day, every hour, she thought something different — it isn't my fault; i am paying my debt. he hurt me; i deserved it.
why was she still searching for him when he knew exactly where to find her?
he tried to drown you in the sea, red leaf.
you are nothing, red leaf.
i don't know why i do this, her voice is suddenly hollow, a husk of what it had been mere moments prior. i don't know how to stop.