The Sunspire i had it all figured out, even what we would argue about

backdated a couple days.  one or two.  kind of really super hoping for a @Terance

she had isolated herself again.

it was just like it had been at tindome — it had started with withdrawal.  then she had begun to avoid food.  it was a behaviour that came just too naturally to the seasprite — one that in coming months she would regret.

but oh, she was blissfully ignorant.  she didn't know that she would concieve.  she did not know the perils that would burden her children.  instead she was selfishly fixed upon herself, intent on destroying everything she had in the most passive way possible.

that's not your place.

then what was?  it seemed like nothing was ever her place.  she and mato had been doomed to fail from the very start.  so she came back and he failed her in the most self-preserving way — by cutting her off without looking back.

so she stepped up for him.  she had met weary travelers at the borders and tried to balance the trades that they'd had.  but he catches her falter once and it doesn't matter.  once more she is worthless.

so she falls in love with this girl that is too perfect, too intense.  and in the blink of an eye, she's gone too.

it seemed only fitting that things had gone sour so quickly between herself and terance.  only this time, she would not be so quick to forgive.  she muses that perhaps if mato showed up and groveled at her feet she would have forgiven him.  but with terance it was still safe.  she could be his packmate but that did not mean that she had to be his friend.

she sat idly, musing beneath the stars that had failed her one too many times in, ironically, the spot that terance had showed her not too long ago.  silently, she cursed them.