Blackfeather Woods what we do in the shadows [pup activity]

this will probably be her only post she's just listening in, skip her in future rounds.

her mind continued to spiral from the previous night...no, the night before- what had even happened last night? she couldn't recall it for the life of her, although it wasn't too hard to guess. she'd mostly just spent the days and nights wandering aimlessly, trying to avoid sleep until falling into fretful dozes when her body emptied out on all energy and forced her wayward brain to shut down. pain, that happened a lot too. it would randomly engulf her in actual waves, as if she were struggling against the rolling sea and unable to help from falling under. there was no use in even attempting to fight it, she just shuddered and waited them out. sometimes she cried, that was when it was at its worst. she didn't sob or anything, just sometimes whilst she crouched salty tears would slip free and roll down furry cheeks. the dam really had shattered and there was nothing she could do but drown until it emptied. maybe then she'd be free of it, after having it all pent up for so long she might finally get to live a life without it.

when she heard maegi's invitation to the pups, the ghost forced stubborn paws to drift in that direction. the idea of getting to listen in on the wood's past was oddly comforting, she wouldn't mind getting to think about a past that wasn't hers. the past two days had been filled up with just that and she needed to escape, drowning was by no means easy. inhaling shakily, she'd attempt a weak smile at the little gathering, considering approaching jakoul for a moment but eventually just opting to sit alone at the edge. she didn't feel up to socializing, all she wanted to do was listen, that'd help. so she lingered in the shadows, dark eyes resting with a silent desperation on maegi's face- so different and yet something that had become so familar to the pale woman.