Blacktail Deer Plateau something happens when i hold him

Grayday let out a deep, uneasy breath and held still for a moment, feeling as though he'd stagger if he tried to move. Finally, he relaxed against Catori once more, hooking his head over her neck. "'m sorry," he mumbled. "I'm just terrified that she'll try to come back for them. I've decided... or I had, before..." He acknowledged that Catori probably had some sway in this situation. "I'm not going to let her see them again. Even if she tries to force her way. I'll stop her."

He gave Catori a serious look. "There's something wrong with her. After she got pregnant, something changed in her. And when they were born, she broke. There was a time when my leg twitched and I woke Lavender. She was crying, and Khoe wouldn't tell me what was wrong. She just held it over my head until I did what she wanted. And Lav was just crying, and I was so scared that something had happened..."

His expression was bleak and far away as he spoke, the words pouring out with palpable fear even after all this time. He'd forgiven her, sure, but it'd been a high-emotion experience, and forgiveness didn't factor into what was best for his children.

"I'm sorry," he repeated, seeming to come back to himself. "Shit - what's a dog doing out here? Do you think it'll be alright in the wintertime?"