Redsand Canyon welcome to the darkside

Leaving details vague as threads unfold, but set after Tamar thread, Towhee thread, and Ruenna thread -- unclear if she's needed to do any treatment on Glaukos or Kallik after their fight as of this moment? @Germanicus

She felt… weak… as if the month of buildup to a spar meant to compare to that of a man like Dimitri had fizzled out with her panic and subsequent poor responses to her own past. The more she got away from it, the more she had realized that it hadn’t involved Glaukos at all. Even if Kallik had insisted he shouldn't have done it. Even if Ruenna apologized for his actions... it had been her own panic to set her off, even if his actions were not necessarily up to code, she should not have panicked as she had. She felt guilty for the accusations that had burned in her own mind while she was in the moment, even if she had clarified with those she had spoken to that he hadn’t tried to do anything other than sit on her like that and not misrepresented that to others… she felt guilty that the thoughts had even appeared in her mind.
 
She knew the Matrona and Imperator would not accept a man like that into their ranks, of course she did… and so she sought out the Imperator, her limp having much faded due to treatment and time. It was time to come clean. It was time to confess her own issues so the man might understand a potential threat who might one day or not at all cross the borders. God, she felt so anxious.
 
She needed to do so before he was holed away with Ruenna, knowing the woman would be keeping him quite busy in the coming days as they tried for their first litter. With the possibility of Ruenna’s children on the way very soon, it felt like an important conversation to have. She’d take up extra patrols personally, even if patrols had never really been part of her job description, to ensure the safety of everyone in Mereo. She had little doubt that if her ex did show up someday, he would not simply stop with her blood.