Porcupine Ridge I'll worship like a dog at the shrine of your lies

The dense trees stretched out around Lorcan as he wove through the forest, each step muffled by the soft, damp earth beneath his paws. Shadows clung to him, their cool fingers slipping across his dark pelt as he prowled deeper into the unfamiliar territory. He’d only been here a short while, but the weight of it pressed heavily on him, like the mist that clung to the trees.

His steps slowed as he took in the quiet around him. This was his new life, wasn’t it? The new choice he’d made, the place he’d decided to call his own. And yet, as he looked around, he couldn’t shake the question that had gnawed at him since he’d arrived: had he done the right thing?

He thought of @Envy, a memory so sharp it might as well have been a blade against his chest. Her smile, her laugh, the way she’d made him feel like he belonged somewhere for once. That pull to her had been magnetic, something he couldn’t resist even if he’d wanted to. And here he was now, left wondering if this life could ever match the spark she’d set alight in him.

Lorcan huffed, a quiet, frustrated sound as he shook his head, pushing the thought of her to the back of his mind. This was no place for sentiment. He needed to learn the land, find his bearings, and prove to himself that he could make something out of this.

Envy too, was skulking about the steep forests; getting a further lay of the land, shifting through the mist and bramble on light feet. Dwindling time to find the last supplies before frost set in.

Cold weather was coming, it felt especially pronounced up here.

Made her shiver. Oh, had she been born with silky locs and flowing hair, maybe then she could've felt the privelage of insulation..; alas, scrawny and cursed at birth, she was not so fortunate.

Made her angry, honestly. She wanted to be big. Wanted to have power beyond what she had to worm her way into. How easy it would all be, no giving up, no transaction, just taking. This envy jealousy festered as it always had.

But she was off track. Silence made the mind reel, solitude too, everything is so loud, thoughts are so loud. She did not want to be alone. Following a mix of scent and disturbed ground, she came up on the trail of the night-cloaked man.

Lorcan halted, head lifting slightly as that faint, feminine scent wafted on the chill. It twisted through the damp air, tantalizing as it tangled with the bite of pine and frost. A slow, knowing smirk crept across his lips, curling with something keen and unmistakably satisfied. He let his voice spill into the shadows, velvety yet edged with amusement, I know you’re there.

He could feel her presence lingering on the periphery, something wild and bitter, like she’d gnash her teeth if it got her what she wanted. He didn’t turn to look but let the silence draw out, savoring the way it left room for her own imagination to stir, teasing her with the question of whether he knew her game. The weight of her jealousy hung in the air—thick and sour, pressing like an undertone to the frost.

Careful where you tread, love, he murmured, his tone sharp and indulgent as he spoke into the mist, you following me, are you?

She crept out, pausing to stubbornly shake a bristle from her tail. I wasn't trying to hide. She flicked an ear and moved in close, casual, came in along the side to look out behind him.

Following him, he accused, as if that weren't precisely the truth. She'd offer a light shrug. Wasn't. Then I was. Figure if yer' gonna walk around anyways you may as well do it with someone else.

Oh, definitely not cause she dreaded being lonely.

You distracted me last time I went out looking for supplies— So you owe it to me to come with me this time. You can be a bodyguard.. or something.... There might be cougars out here. A museful grin toyed at pallid features, she looked on for his decision.

Do it Do it Do it; wide eyes communicated in the momentary breath of silence.

Lorcan’s brow arched with playful skepticism, a glint of mischief settling in his dark gaze. Cougars? he echoed, savoring the word, rolling it over his tongue with a smirk. He let his gaze roam over her, teasing as he added, Might just let them get you.

He held her stare for a beat, the silence hanging between them as he watched the way her wide, eager eyes almost dared him to agree. Then, with a resigned sigh that was anything but serious, he chuckled low, stepping forward. Alright then, darling, since you insist on dragging me along, lead the way.

He shifted closer, brushing past her as he started walking. But if you think I’m going to be your bodyguard, you’ve got another thing coming, he added, tossing her a sideways glance, a spark of amusement lighting his expression. If anything, you'll be keeping me out of trouble.

How cruel..She feigns insult with an exaggerated gasp, no shortage of dramatics spared in this brief display, her head cast off to the side before it'd snap back, a little snicker released. Well- I'm sure could take em' anyways. She'd shrug.

Probably not.

But she had got his agreement! The theory didn't need to be tested.

But her? Keep anybody out of trouble? Not likely. The wretch was a magnet for misventure, drawn in easily, a moth swallowed by the sun, sated by it and burned all in one.

Compelled to it. They were like to be a terrible duo.

Oh? Do you really run into trouble so often? She'd inquire curiously, taking the lead and assuming a casual pace; calculated steps brought them down lightly-trodden trails, hawkish eyes surveyed the undergrowth. It felt easier now than it had before. An impish glimmer danced in her eyes, held a curious mischief as she halted to glimpse back, head crooked, always crooked. What sort?

Lorcan's lips curled into a sly grin, his steps smooth and deliberate as he followed her lead down the lightly-trodden trail. He watched her theatrics with an amused tilt of his head, his golden eyes gleaming with that ever-present spark of mischief.

Oh, terribly often, he replied, his voice dripping with mock seriousness, the proper accent giving his words an air of dramatized sophistication. It would seem trouble has a way of finding me, no matter where I go. Almost as if it were… fate. His grin widened, his tone playful but his words carrying just enough edge to suggest truth lurking beneath the jest.

Her impish glimmer didn’t escape his notice. That crooked head of hers, the way she cast those calculating glances—she was a tempest wrapped in silk, all intrigue and chaos. A perfect storm.

And you, he continued, his voice dropping just slightly, laced with a teasing accusation. You seem drawn to it, don’t you? A moth to the flame, or perhaps the flame itself. His gaze lingered on her, sharp and probing, though the smirk that tugged at his lips softened the intensity of his scrutiny.

The deadly kind.

S'that what you were out here doing before I got here? I shudder to think of what you might have planned. She snickered, crooked tail briefly swishing across the bracken. Maybe it doesn't follow you, maybe you just are the trouble.

She'd halt her pace, having found a little something to add to the collection. The plant was unassuming from first glance, a stalk of dying white flowers, unsuited to the very near threat of winter. She wasn't picking flowers this time around, though. She began to dig carefully around the base; long nails clearly kept in such a way for this particular act, she kept her movements methodical, she wouldn't be half the talented healer she liked to claim she was if she couldn't unearth a simple root without nickin' it. She displayed a sort of gentleness reserved for nothing else.

Eventually, the stubborn flora was freed from its earthly prison, she kept the stalk intact, useless for medicine, but oh so useful for making sure she didn't have to get dirt in her mouth while she carried it home. Not that I mind, y'know. It gets me excited just thinkin' of all the nice little—or not so little wounds I'll get to patch up. I like challenges, n' I'm good at my job, so don't hesitate to really take one. I'll keep ya in one piece.
She'd inch back into his space, leering up at him with a delighted craze, before turning back to the task at hand, walking a few steps forward.

Lorcan watched the little shadow work, the corner of his lips curling in a lopsided grin. Her delicate precision with the root was almost endearing, though her words carried that same impish edge that always seemed to follow her. He let the silence linger for a moment, savoring the tension she so gleefully stirred.

Trouble follows me like a loyal hound, he finally replied, his deep voice laced with humor. But perhaps you're right—maybe I am the trouble. He stepped closer, his dark frame casting a shadow over her as she worked, his crimson eyes glinting with amusement. And maybe that's exactly why you enjoy my company, little shadow.

He tilted his head, watching her with a predator's ease, his tone shifting to something softer but no less dangerous. As for your offer, I think I’ll take you up on it. I’ll keep you busy, no doubt—scraping me off the brink and stitching me back together. But let’s make one thing clear. He leaned in slightly, his voice dropping low enough to feel like a secret in itself.

Whatever trouble we find, whatever mess we make—we keep our secrets to ourselves. No loose tongues, no prying eyes. Deal?

Straightening, his grin widened into something almost boyish, though the glint in his eyes was anything but innocent. Don’t disappoint me now, Envy. I’d hate to have to go looking for another healer with your... unique touch.

She liked this game. Liked to be included.

Didn't like that last part, though. God she hated competition, her gaze darkened in kind and teemed with little fantasies of the worst kind; there would be no others because she would make sure of it. There would be none to dethrone her, not without meeting the worst of her ire, an ire tested only once, and left banging against the cell bars of her thoughts, scratching at cocoon walls just begging to find its way out.

Hard to forget that taste, though.

She grew used to the smell of iron, to the stains and smears that slicked ivory surgeon's hands, but the taste? Not like deer, not like coyote, not like not like not like anything else. Grease on gears, and suddenly they worked all that much better. The clarity was like the first breath of clean air she'd ever had, looking down over that still mound of fur. Breath materialized in the crisp air, synchronous, in tune and not on the sidelines, finally, finally, finally.

And she deprived herself of it, that fresh air. She knew what it made her. Wretched thing. All wrong.

But it didn't feel all that wrong, right now. Maybe it was the way he spoke, his indifference paired with her own; crimes weighed but not judged, not judged. She owed it to him and even if she hadn't she would've kept all things close, secrets wrapped in thorns and dragged into the depths of whatever could've sufficed for a heart inside her.

I can keep secrets. She said through a soft breath, a world away and returned in the blink of an eye; she found herself quite... amused. Excited, really. Anticipation, rot, it all seeped from her. But you would find nobody else like me... I'm a rare breed, hard to replicate. A paw rolled forward in gesture before she'd spin around in place, flick a switch, sensitivity now lacing her breath; something tender in her eyes and in her voice. You wouldn't leave, would you?

Leave me. Not when she was starting to like him. No no no no no he couldn't go anywhere. Claws were in deep.

sorry for the wait, had been cooking this one up in my drafts for a minute.

Lorcan tilted his head as if weighing her words, but his gaze remained steady, fixed on her with a smirk that teetered between amusement and something deeper. He wasn’t the sort to ruminate too long or offer sentiment freely, but every now and then, the mask slipped—not fully, just enough to let a flicker of his thoughts be seen.

As she spun, her sensitivity slipping through the cracks of her otherwise formidable front, he stepped closer. Not hurriedly, not dramatically, but with purpose. His shadow stretched toward her, a reminder of his presence that loomed, though never without a certain allure. When she came to a stop, claws dug in deeper, her words soft but sharp, he leaned in just enough that the air between them seemed to thin.

You've got me pegged all wrong, darling, he murmured, his voice low, resonant, and wrapped in the silk of his proper English cadence. If I were to leave, it wouldn’t be because of someone else. No competition, no rival would drive me off. His lips quirked in that infuriatingly confident way, but there was no jest in his tone now—only a rare thread of sincerity, like a knife slipped between ribs, unexpected and pointed.

And if I did go anywhere, he continued, his eyes narrowing slightly, his voice dropping to a near whisper, it’d be six feet under. A grave’s the only thing that’ll take me from your side. And even then... His words trailed off, the implication lingering like a ghost in the cold air. His smirk softened into something almost imperceptible, something that might’ve been mistaken for tenderness—if one believed he was capable of such a thing.

He stayed there for a moment longer, letting the weight of his words settle between them, before pulling back just slightly, enough to let her breathe. His gaze didn’t waver, though, and his smirk returned, playful and dangerous in equal measure. You’re right about one thing, he added, letting a paw gesture lazily toward her. There’s no one else like you. And I don’t care to replicate you. A rare breed, indeed.

For a man who danced so often with mockery, there was no jest in his promise now. He wasn’t going anywhere. Not by choice. Not by chance.

One thing, one weakness in the wretched face of the girl Envy;

She didn't mind being used so long as it meant she got to stay. She'd do anything to spare herself the ordeal of being discarded. Anything anything anything at all.

She didn't make the distinction of being used most times anyways, and if she did she certainly didn't say anything about it. Envy kept herself fixed to this cycle; be loved, be wanted, be needed, be desired, any of those things, any at all and she was in deep. Like an angler fish searching in the dark for another, bodies, souls, everything entangles into one. Chimera.

She was led easily by sweet words and breathy promises; she'd not been the sort to receive them often. And so, she was lulled in by his admission of... devotion, genuine, as far as she could tell; curtains of jest and flowered flattery were transparent in just this moment, enough to see through all that was concealed behind.

She too could obsess. Little kindlings of a fire stirred in that cavernous heart of hers. She looked at him in this way that was all consuming.

I wouldn't let the ground take ya. It'd be a failure on my part n' I don't fail. Not like this, anyways. She murmured, no move to put space between them, no no, she liked to be close. He smelled of something ashen and something sweet. I'd dig you up anyways n' see if I could figure out a work around. You're too fun to die. A grin would tease the corners of her pale jaws, he amused her, validated her, and that was perhaps the most important thing in the world to her. Coat of shame shorn away.

I'll keep our secrets locked away, no telling or tattling. You can do whatever you want. A pause, anticipation hung on soft breath. Just keep an eye out above. Muskrat and Nutu-yikruk like to spy. She'd lean in and whisper the last part, mischief on her tongue.

Lorcan’s dark eyes glinted with amusement as Envy spoke, her words carrying that curious blend of loyalty and mischief he found so enticing. She was a peculiar creature, twisted and fascinating, her devotion simmering beneath the surface in a way that felt both endearing and dangerous. He loved to play with fire, and she was every spark.

His brow arched at the names she murmured with conspiratorial flair—Muskrat and Nutu-yikruk. Little squeakers, huh? Intriguing and bizarre, like everything about her. His grin widened, sharp and wicked, leaning just a fraction closer to her.

Little squeakers watching from above, he mused, his voice a low hum of amusement. I’ll keep my eyes open. Wouldn’t want them tattling on me, now would we? The thought of being watched didn’t seem to bother him; if anything, it amused him.

He let the silence linger for a moment, his gaze holding hers with deliberate intensity. And you, he murmured, his tone slipping into something velvety and teasing. You’d dig me up, huh? Piece me back together? That’s devotion, darling.

His tail flicked lazily behind him, a gesture as nonchalant as his tone, though the sharp glint in his eye betrayed his endless appetite for games. I think I’ll keep you around, Envy. Someone who doesn’t fail... that’s someone worth having close.

The way he spoke, smooth and honeyed, always seemed to leave room for ambiguity, leaving others to wonder just how much he truly meant. But there was a flicker in his gaze—something genuine, buried deep beneath the jest and the charm. For now, he’d follow her lead, heed her advice, and keep an eye on the skies for her mysterious little spies.

She grew satisfied with that. Worthwhile. Worth keeping. Worth having close. The feeling ran down her spine, the most imperceptible of shivers rippling through her body. Smile tore wider, she turned on a dime and resumed the pace forward, though not before swiping his muzzle with her tail on the way by.

..Do you keep many close? She inquired as she dropped low to the ground, unearthing more roots and adding them to a pile. She surveyed patches of undergrowth, scrying eyes knew what to look for.

She did not keep many close. Not by choice but by nature. Much as she tried, it was like sifting through sand with a strainer, hoping some of it wouldn't inevitably sliiiip through. Insanity in its very own definition. Perhaps trouble was the same, even if motivated by different patterns and thoughts.

She listened, was listening, much as she moved ahead and traipsed through undergrowth in erratic steps, here one moment, there the next. Catch up, you're slacking as my body guard. N' carry those. She called, popping up from the bracken and gesturing with a quick prompt of her head towards her pile. Giving orders came oh so naturally.

Lorcan hummed, a low, quiet sound of acknowledgment as he moved to collect the pile Envy had unearthed. His steps were measured, deliberate, as he bent to take hold of the roots she'd discarded. His golden eyes flicked toward her, sharp and amused, as she flitted through the undergrowth like a restless spirit.

No, he replied plainly to her question, his voice even and smooth. I don’t keep anyone close. There was no bitterness to his tone, just a matter-of-fact quality that carried the weight of a truth he had long since accepted.

As she barked her playful orders, swiping his muzzle with her tail before disappearing again into the bracken, Lorcan shook his head faintly. A smirk pulled at his lips as he hefted the bundle she’d pointed to, the task no real burden to him.

Slacking? he echoed with mock indignation, his tone light despite the sharpness of his usual demeanor. I’m carrying your mess, aren’t I? He moved to follow her erratic path, his gaze lingering on the spots where she vanished and reappeared, his stride steady and unhurried.

And you—do you keep anyone close, Envy? The tease in his voice was faint, but it lingered in the air between them.

Most of what she'd kept close was inevitably taken. Perhaps that was why she latched onto her skills so strongly, everything tangible, real; that can be taken away. What is in her mind could not be, her knowledge would remain to her. He had the strength to defend what he wanted and still he kept nothing close. Strange. She couldn't help but wonder why. 'Cept me, right? she mused, teasing but oh so serious, she walked the line.

If it weren't true it would be. She was a parasite.

But things were changing and she was nothing but an optimistic beast, unlearning after each trial. Mm. Some. She'd answer with a casual shrug of bony shoulders. My brother, once. Here, I have Dreven.

The first behemoth she'd hauled in tow, seemed she had a knack for it. It was a rather sad little list of friends. She knew the others, sure, but she hadn't earned every bit of trust she could. She was trusted, yes, but not loved. Not loved like she needed to be.

There's a momentary breath between her words, she comes back to add another stalk to Lorcan's labours. He's disgusting sometimes, but.. he's nice to me. Her legs shuffled a bit, a softness in her voice after her chastisement of his suggestive habits.

That was her true definition of good and evil. She cared very little for crimes against others, pasts soaked in blood were water under the bridge. Who was she to judge anyway? She did not have volume in her transgressions, but she still had blood on her hands all the same. Frankly, shamefully, killers and killing both intrigued and amused her.

Lorcan's hum was low, teasing, the sound of a cat playing with its prey. His sharp features curved into an exaggerated smirk, eyes narrowing with mischief. He tilted his head slightly, letting his gaze linger on her as if weighing her question.

Only you, he replied, the words smooth and mocking, though his tone carried a sliver of sincerity. He let the moment linger, his tail swaying lazily behind him as if he had all the time in the world.

Then, with a calculated flick of his ear, he shifted gears, his curiosity piqued. Your brother, he began, his voice softening just enough to show a trace of genuine interest. What’s he like? What’s your story there?

He leaned in slightly, his interest as predatory as his earlier teasing. Lorcan thrived on stories, secrets, the vulnerabilities others tried to hide. And if she wanted to dance this game of teasing and trust, he was more than happy to oblige.

Her brother. If there was one weight she didn't know she carried, it was that of never being able to say goodbye to him. Everyone was in the wrong place at the wrong time. He probably thought she was dead.

What was he like... how to put this nicely... His name's Verax, He's.... dumb as fucking rocks. she snickered, almost exasperated, honestly. Once they'd been the brain and muscle that kept each other alive. N' not near as pretty as I am. A stark white paw turned inward, pressed to her chest in display, some form of girlish amusement on her face.

But it made her sad. She missed him. He was once the only one who could understand. Really, he still was. Suppose that was the curse of siblings, you're born knowing each other. But he could fight, hard to tell if he was any good at it given that he got messed up every time, but I didn't mind too much. Meant I got to practice on him.

Reminiscing was getting difficult. She'd tried to block it all from her mind so she didn't feel that gaping part of her soul that was now gone, forever, probably. He was.. um.. all I had for a while. We kept each other alive. He took most a' the hurt from everyone else. Y'know it probably scrambled his brain a bit. Her paws were unable to be still, nails flexed against the ground, a testament to the unease. She let out a lighter laugh, if only to pull her away from it again.

Did you have any littermates?

Only a cameo because I can. Hehe

Dreven never was very far. Long lean legs and scarred body skimmed through the underbrush. One singular eye taking in the world around. Heady whispers and he followed. One blind, one wide open.

Roved along the two charming wolves. How quaint. They didn't see him, he didn't think. But there was a glint of something unholy in the red of his eye. So she liked to talk about others. Didn't matter what she said. His name had been in her mouth and she had delivered his presence.

He gave a soft snort. A smirk and turned the opposite way. Curiosity sated for where his little shadow was. But she kept other company. And perhaps it was time to make her stay with that one. Because Dreven couldn't promise anything. Not even friendship. He perverted it and twisted it.

Lorcan’s lips curved into a sly smile, a mixture of amusement and subtle fondness glimmering in his sharp, calculating gaze as he regarded the little shadow who had so seamlessly woven herself into his world. His tone was smooth, his words deliberate, carrying that signature edge of charm.

I have no littermates, he replied evenly, his voice measured yet tinged with a faint trace of detachment. It has always been just me.

He leaned forward slightly, the distance between them narrowing, his tone softening, though the weight of his words lingered. Why do you ask, my sweet thing? Is it pity you feel for me, or is it that you wish to keep me entirely for yourself?

The question was playful, but there was an undercurrent of sincerity woven through his inquiry. She had a way of reaching corners of him he often ignored, like a shadow casting light on his hidden vulnerabilities.

It seems to me, he continued, his gaze steady, that I’ve fared well enough without them. But now you’ve piqued my curiosity. Tell me more about this brother of yours. I can’t help but wonder—how does he compare to someone as... remarkable as you?

Oh, he had the air of an only child to him—she'd just wanted to confirm it. She fought the corners of her maw as it threatened to spread a satisfied grin, oh how nice it felt to be right. Jus' figured if you didn't keep many close, that y'either didn't have any or didn't like em'. I thought there might've been a story somewhere in there.

Well, if he would not tell one, she most certainly would; she liked to talk and his proximity invited her into it further. Dreven had sated that need for listening ears most days and nights, but Envy was a beast insatiable, and an opportunistic one at that. He doesn't, really. A silvery brow would raise, she contemplated complimenting her brother, he had been her rock, the shield that kept her from fates worse than the one they'd been given the moment they slid into this world; but he was her brother and so she was drawn to the call of insult. I mean.. He's... I don't know. He liked to pick fights, could'a sworn he liked getting hurt... Envy drawled with a inkling of suspicion, the sort that implied something far nastier, her words complimented with a shudder. I think he pretended to be worse than he was sometimes.

Unlike her, her brother had heart. The sort that stood up for others even if he went about it in a way that made it seem like it was for himself. Only in spilt blood did they have any semblence of similarity. Only in that call to violence did the blood in their veins burn the same.

The devil their sire, they'd been cursed that way. Verax always had more direction with it. He used ta' fight for the scraps we got to eat, n' he kept some of the others away. He got all the size— an ever so breif pause as she'd hiss out the word Bastard, she seethed with envyjealousy, he owed it to her to protect them since he stole all the strength that should've been split between them So it was only right he did the work.

There had been others, at the point of their entrance to this world. Not that they'd lived long. Instead it was her, meekest of the bunch that carried on. She spared the others no memory, what good would it have done her? Even their names were lost in the fog of her head.

Once, she'd never been without him. Now it had been months, and though she replaced the comfort and protection with that of others, there was still a part of her that left him to idle at the back of her mind. He probably thought she was long dead.

He might've been, too.

We were separated back when— She flashed him a knowing look through a guilty red gaze. Y'know. I had to go and I didn't have the luxury of telling him.

More than that even, she had not been right of mind at the time, a mess of a bloodied nape and the smear of kinsblood on her chin and in her mouth. She'd run until she'd collapsed, sobbing, angry, panicked, stumbling and swaying, everything all at once. Madness. It reared its head and covered so much of it in fog, it violated her.

She didn't want to talk about him anymore. Something stirred in her gaze and caught in her breath.

Lorcan listened, truly listened, and for a man so often lost in his own clever words and sharp wit, it was a rare thing. Envy spoke, her voice weaving a story that felt heavier than the space they occupied. He did not interrupt, nor did his usual smirk make an appearance. Instead, his golden eyes softened, steady on her face as she unraveled the threads of her history.

There was weight in her words, a ferocity beneath her casual tone, and it drew him in. He felt it in the way she spat her brother's name, in the way her words twisted with both resentment and longing. It stirred something primal within him, a quiet awe for her resilience, for the fire that burned behind those guilty red eyes.

When she spoke of their separation, of her guilt, his chest tightened, though he gave no outward sign of it. Instead, he leaned slightly closer, his presence grounding without being overbearing.

Sounds like the bastard earned his place, he murmured, voice low and even, though his gaze didn’t waver. And maybe... maybe you did too. Carrying what he couldn’t.

He let the words settle, careful not to press too hard, sensing the shift in her. The pause in her breath, the flicker in her gaze—it all spoke to the walls she was building back up. Lorcan knew better than to push further.

You’re here now, he said simply, with me, his voice carrying a rare sincerity. That counts for something.

Then, with a quiet hum, he leaned back ever so slightly, giving her the space she seemed to need, though his watchful eyes stayed fixed on her.

sorry i've been cooking this one up

She busied herself. When that vacancy had opened up, she made sure to quickly fix it, find others to fill that void because she had no idea how to be alone. She lashed out when she was alone. Hurt others, and hurt herself. She faltered, the consequences of being more feral than not.

But nothing could be done to change what had already past, she knew that. This was not a physical wound to be mended, and though she considered herself a greater doctor than time, perhaps it was best to let time take this one over. She thought instead of being here now. She'd been in yellowstone before, did any of it mean something? Or was it just a long trail of broken places she'd leave in her wake?

Claws that dig so deep also tear.

She disliked this. The guilt, she felt guilt—why did she feel guilt? Her facade of playful indifference cracked; A crazed look flashed across her eyes, far away, and yet soul-piercing; aimed blankly ahead. Everything was only shapes, reduced the basest of terms because that made it easier to live with. Irrationality ate away at the corners of her mind and she failed to resist the idle shake of her paws. Was it about her brother? Or about her own increasingly fragile place in the world? She breathed out a few half-laughs as her digits flexed against the earth. That madness always found her, no matter where she was.

She did not want space. She wanted the absence of it. Perhaps it was bold, then again, when had she not been, but she leaned into him, enveloped in that shadow, seeking a comfort unspoken. He made it easy with his thoughtful hum and soft sincerity. Maybe.

She had found some form of kinship. In him. In Dreven. It's.. better here. I didn't even know there were better places before. She scoffed at her own ignorance, not that it could've been helped at the time. What about you? You don't have siblings, y'don't keep anybody close... You owe me more secrets. She perked her ears, flipped the switch of existentialism to casual intrigue with a quick shake of her head, as if it were all a game.

Lorcan's hum deepened, resonating from his chest as he cast her a sidelong glance. His amber eyes held a flicker of something unreadable—amusement, perhaps, or merely the weight of a thought too deeply buried to surface easily.

Secrets, is it? he murmured, his tone light but edged with that ever-present, rakish charm. Well, if you insist, I suppose I could indulge you.

His gaze wandered upward for a moment, scanning the open sky, though his mind was far from it. I was a hired mercenary for most of my life, he said simply, the words devoid of embellishment. Coin kept me fed, kept me moving. Prestige kept my name on the right tongues. Reputation kept me alive. He glanced at her then, a sharp yet somehow gentle look. But it doesn’t leave much room for anything else. Siblings, close ties—they tend to complicate matters. And complications, darling, are a luxury I’ve rarely been able to afford.

He shifted slightly as she leaned into him, neither encouraging nor withdrawing. The shadow he cast around her felt purposeful, like the shelter of a storm-clouded night. Better places exist, sure. But better, worse—it’s all relative, isn’t it? Sometimes it’s just about the company. His smirk returned, faint but undeniably present. And it seems you’ve found mine tolerable enough to stick around.

He let her question linger, unanswered in full, before a low chuckle slipped free. You’ll have to keep prying if you want more, love. I don’t give it all away at once.

Envy listened, eager to lap it all up. Paid to kill? she missed her calling It would send a shudder down the spine of someone with a sane head on their shoulders, but Envy had strangely come to meet quite a few. She leaned to the side to look at him, her head slightly tilted up How was that for you?

Fun? She dared it to be said.

Scandalous!

It was always about the company, that which she kept herself so tethered to. Tried to, at least. For better, or worse. Prestige.. Reputation.. but no luxuries. Shame. What's the point of either if you deny yourself luxuries? bony shoulders rolled in a shrug.

She never did. Never. No quarter given; for better, or worse. Never could deny herself lifes little pleasures. All she did was want.

She pulled herself from his shadow, continued on looking for herbs, nose to the ground. I think we're even. For now... Unless of course... you wanted to tell me more?

Charming creature. She toyed with the subject.