Shadewood lonely man of winter

how are you feeling?

tear filled eyes watched him shiffle from side to side as he asked the question that she would rather he not ever ask. it was obvious what he was searching for, what he wanted to know but she quickly turned away from him. her tail swished once, twice as her head finally drooped. "i'd rather not say." she simple put the words out there as she looked back at him, that look said everything before she lowered her rump to the ground. 

after today she would have to lie, she would have to say she left the territory like a stupid girl and was found by a loner. what did he look like, well, he was ash and soot in color and his eyes. well, she did not see his eyes. would that be convincing?  if her child came out with the freckles of issun and his eyes? what could she say to him, to make this all better? 

it would be better if she disappeared, she knew this.. even if he did not want her to.