Swiftcurrent Creek How did I lose it when I was right there?

He really should have left this to someone else. That was what guards were for; exactly this kind of situation. But in the moment all Kel could think about was the fact that he could not let her leave. That would be a failure on his part — and one that he felt he would surely be blamed for. To have made things worse would be a shame Kel was unwilling to live with. He already had so much to be ashamed of.
So, in spite of every instinct urging him otherwise, he darted after her and caught her once again. This time he meant not to block her but to pin her and keep her there. He expected violence. Frankly, he was shocked she hadn't bitten him already. Calm down, He urged; not one of his better notions, but he wasn't thinking clearly.