April 18, 2024, 02:49 PM
Esma had not agreed to John's offer to join him right away, but the thought had stayed with her for the next days, while she figured out, what she wanted to do. Riverclan was her home after all, even if she had not connected particularly well with any of the people here. Besides Ash Star could still teach her so much about the ways of gods, but Esma's perspective had changed. She no longer saw her mom's rituals and actions as something of value and meaning. More often it felt to her as if it was just another game that her mother had kept on playing way into the adulthood. She sincerely wanted to believe in the existance of Atka and Sos, truly feel connected to them, but she could not. In the end... they were not her gods.
For Esma, who would always have millions of questions in order to understand the order of the world and the realms of the living and the divine, having something to anchor her being to was important. Over time its significance grew and overshadowed everything else. Even loyalty to her mother. Therefore on the day she had finally made her decision to set on her own pilgrimage, she sought out her mother to say her goodbyes.
Ask before skipping. Esma was born 3/5/23
April 19, 2024, 09:55 AM
Esma had been distant, but Ash simply watched her from a distance. Giving her the space she needed. Hoping her daughter knew that she was there.
The younger ones were laying with Acantha and she tilted her head.
A smile lighting up her face.
A sweep of her tail. She hadn't been the best mother she knew this. But ahe was hoping to make up.
The younger ones were laying with Acantha and she tilted her head.
A smile lighting up her face.
Hello Esma.
A sweep of her tail. She hadn't been the best mother she knew this. But ahe was hoping to make up.
April 19, 2024, 05:03 PM
Odd thing, how sometimes parents think that they are to blame for their children's decisions in life, when in reality it has nothing to do with them. In regards of Ash Star Esma had never thought of her being good or bad mother. She was just mother, the only one she had ever known and had no other references to compare her to. Objectively, her mom had completed her job, which first had meant ensuring that her young survives and then guide her through youth towards independence. That's it.
"Hello, mother," she replied and went to give her a brief, polite greeting, before taking a step back. "I wanted to let you know that I am leaving Riverclan to find god," she went straight to the business. "Atka and Sos are not mine, but there are others. And I want to learn about them," she said.
"Hello, mother," she replied and went to give her a brief, polite greeting, before taking a step back. "I wanted to let you know that I am leaving Riverclan to find god," she went straight to the business. "Atka and Sos are not mine, but there are others. And I want to learn about them," she said.
Ask before skipping. Esma was born 3/5/23
April 23, 2024, 08:36 AM
Esma was so much more reserved than Avantha. Perhaps she had gotten that from her father for he had been as such. A brief meeting between two vastly different individuals had given her a most wonderful gift.
Ash Paw smiled.
Though it hurt a little to know Esma was leaving. She knew that this was the way of things. They left. Sometimes they came back.
Ash Paw smiled.
I hope you find the one thats yours.
Though it hurt a little to know Esma was leaving. She knew that this was the way of things. They left. Sometimes they came back.
I will miss you. And please don't forget to visit.
April 23, 2024, 12:47 PM
Esma's narrator thinks that the way Ash star responded to her daughter's reasons for leaving spoke volumes on, how much they truly understood each other. For most parents hearing that their child is about to embark on a spiritual journey and plans to do it in all earnesty, that would be a frown-worthy moment. A heated argument would follow that would end in hurt feelings on both sides and some distancing from each other as well.
The exchange between Esma and her mother was different, because for each the spiritual plane was very important. Therefore going out in the world to seek fulfillment in this particular area of life did not raise any questions. It was very logical.
"I will. I have my whole life for it," Esma replied and smiled. "I promise. I will," she said.
The exchange between Esma and her mother was different, because for each the spiritual plane was very important. Therefore going out in the world to seek fulfillment in this particular area of life did not raise any questions. It was very logical.
"I will. I have my whole life for it," Esma replied and smiled. "I promise. I will," she said.
Ask before skipping. Esma was born 3/5/23
April 26, 2024, 12:50 PM
Ash realized perhaps her reaction wasn't a normal parent one. Her own family had been irate at her choices. And yet. She felt this was important. That perhaps Esma had more of her mother than her father.
A small smile.
Ash looked over her daughter with now a worried expression.
A small smile.
Yes you do. I wish you a full life and that you find the one you look for. The wolves of Akashingo have many gods. There used to be an island that also held close ties with god. Perhaps you can make pilgrimage to these places.
Ash looked over her daughter with now a worried expression.
Please remember no matter what you can always come home. And if something should ever happen that we aren't here. Which I doubt, but still I will leave clues at my altars for you. And remember. Never compromise your own self worth or gods for anyone.
May 01, 2024, 01:48 PM
"I will remember that," Esma promised, dipping her muzzle respectfully. Ash Star's promise to be there for her, even from far away, made her heart swell with emotion. It was a mix of love and sadness, anticipation and cautiousness. This was truly it. The next chapter of her life was about to begin. She just needed to make that one final step.
But right before that, she neared her mom, to press her cheek against hers in a rare moment of sincerity. Usually she was not the one to crave touch or snuggles. Her whole co-existence with Ash Star may have seemed as solely pragmatic one based on her need to be fed and protected and prepared for the life. However, now and then on very special occasions she let her guard down and showed affection. However brief it may have been, it was true through and through.
But right before that, she neared her mom, to press her cheek against hers in a rare moment of sincerity. Usually she was not the one to crave touch or snuggles. Her whole co-existence with Ash Star may have seemed as solely pragmatic one based on her need to be fed and protected and prepared for the life. However, now and then on very special occasions she let her guard down and showed affection. However brief it may have been, it was true through and through.
You can fade out in your next post! Thank you!
Ask before skipping. Esma was born 3/5/23
May 02, 2024, 10:02 AM
Ash felt sad that her daughter was leaving. But Esma had a good head on her shoulders like all her children. She had at least given them common sense.
Ash returned the soft touch. A smile on her face. Then she would watch as Esma walked towards a future she hoped was as bright as her daughter.
Ash returned the soft touch. A smile on her face. Then she would watch as Esma walked towards a future she hoped was as bright as her daughter.
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