Redsand Canyon When I first saw you, the end was soon

There was no hesitation in his readiness to stay, and she hadn’t expected any. She doubted anything short of an emergency or her ex bursting through the door of their marital den might pull him from her side in that moment and he was grateful for his presence. She felt sick to her stomach still as the worry gnawed away. She shivered lightly, finally starting to let all of the emotions she had been holding in, out in controlled amounts. She shook her head at the mention of rest though she laid down willingly.
 
“I can’t rest.” She gruffed out stubbornly. “What if she starts to bleed again? What if I am needed?” She continued to fret despite the fact that the Matrona had been fine, albeit week, since she had gotten the bleeding under control. “What if my fix was only a temporary one? What if I lose her?” What would become of them if she failed? What would become of her? Towhee would surely hate her because the Matrona was her best friend… perhaps the Imperator would banish her for failing to keep his wife alive? What would Tamar or Arsenio think? Perhaps they would all see her for the fraud she often thought of herself as… what if she lost them all?