Bearclaw Valley redemption so clean, discovering me

indra knew that laurel was right, but it didn't stop the thick resentment that started to smokily choke her heart. so xan wasn't any better than reek; porking women indiscriminately, ruining lives (and creating a mess of lives) in the process. a dark scowl fell across her features as she thought of their future here: a future with puppies.

indra admired her sister's resilience - it was resilience the redleaf girl had never had. instead, she just had bitterness -- and she silently set upon it herself to Admonish xan later for his selfish actions. he had sprung life in laurel's belly - life that neither of them were ready or equipped to deal with and that prospect more than anything terrified her.

what if they ended up having lives like laurel and indra had? her heart broke at the thought. no. she wouldn't allow this. she would talk to xan tomorrow, and make him swear his fidelity to laurel, swear his involvement with the puppies -- it was not right for them to grow up in a fractured family the way the redleaf girls had.

"if he doesn't see how much better you are than her, he isn't even worth the air that shitbag breathes." indra growled, her grouchy expression even more stormy as she thought of the mute girl and her impending puppies too. fuck them! they would use xan as a resource, and do exactly what jhala and tapat and astik had done to reek: make xan's involvement in their life miserable and scarce as hen's teeth.