Redtail Rise bloodsnow

this mattered more to ancelin than redd could possibly know. 
visibly, he deflated, jaw tensing as his cousin reached for him. not in fear of her, but in unsurety of what to do. he was not often touched; he did not often seek it.
the bearclaw eyes soothed now; ancelin grew shy. "sometimes i think i should leave too. like them," he mumbled for her ears only. "but i don't want to, redd. i want to be here. i just —"