Jade Fern Grove mea maxima culpa

she wanted to refute his statement immidiately, but held her tongue - she had no desire to cut in, now. his words were like fridgid water as the weight of them suddenly became apparent, and for a moment she lost the words that had been so near to her tongue. "I was scared and stupid, but those are no excuse." her words lack the strength of those former, but she persists. "I am sorry - for all the hurt I've caused, all that I've destroyed. but you are a good man, Adi, one who's done terrible things but a good one all the same." she says the latter with certainty, for despite all this she knows it to be true. 

and then her face falls and grief surges; it is one thing to tell strangers the fate of her family but another to tell him.  "they're gone. I never did find anyone - and Sunny couldn't hold the rest together on his own. they joined Elysium. Aviana - Aviana died. her daughter and Pema disappeared." her ears sweep back and her muzzle tightens. she's come to terms with the death of her friend, somewhat, but the grief still lasts and she feels responsible for the disappearance of Faye. she falls silent, words still waiting on her tongue yet unspoken.