Redhawk Caldera angel of mercy

Eljay sat down, since it didn't look like nothing weird was gonna happen, anyway. He listened as daddy responded enthusiastically at least, which was a boost to his confidence in the matter. He was still unsure if he'd be any good at it, but the only thing he could do was try to find out. Eljay was terrified that he would muck things up, though. What if the pups turned out like him? The thought was terrifying, 'cause not only would Fox and Peregrine be seriously disappointed if they were, but also the poor pups would be teased by Nightjar all the time and poor Nightjar would have losers for siblings.

"I guess I'm..." Eljay hesitated, afraid to be put down for what he was about to say, but he needed to tell someone, anyway. "I'm kind of scared if I spend too much time with them they'll become, well, like me..." Eljay looked away, feeling kind of ashamed not just for what he said about himself (knowing daddy would disapprove, but everyone knew it was true that it'd be a bad thing if the litter would turn out like him, anyway) but also 'cause he hadn't turned out better desite his best efforts.