Redhawk Caldera fading away

Eljay didn't really think that learning new things would make him happy again. The only things that would make him happy were mommy, or to be a happier, better child; but the latter seemed like an impossible goal that he could never achieve. To be the child his parents could be proud of... It seemed impossible. But Raven wanted instead for him to learn medicine, even if Eljay didn't think it would help.

But he wasn't really in any position to object, so without any form of real enthusiasm he murmured, "Sure, I guess..." Maybe it would be good for him and maybe he would feel better... But somehow, he doubted it. He confessed: "I always wanted to help deliver puppies, to make sure that the birth would go well. But I don't think anyone would trust me with something important like that..." He was pretty sure Fox wouldn't. Aunt Fox was great but he always felt a little nervous in her presence, because she seemed to appreciate qualities he didn't posses. And mommy was gone, and she had almost died when he had helped her last time...